friends don't let friends blog angry.

~ so it seems that so far 2007 is only bringing endings, no new beginnings. here's to hoping i have the sight and wisdom within to learn something from all of this.

~ yesterday was such a nice day for a change. from sleeping in, to lounging around in a cloud of smoke, to my uncle's VERY nice brunch, to he & his wife's special announcement, i had a good Sunday.

~ i can't believe she accused me of cheatin man. or even sleepin around in general. i'm just amazed. in awe, even. cuz that took BALLS. condom inventory and myspace comments be damned.

~ i think this all boils back down to my theory of "unbalanced expectations". i appreciate all she tried to be & do for me, but quite frankly it wasn't what i asked. the things i asked her for are much less strenuous and worrisome than the things she chose to try to "be" for me. this me feeling unfulfilled at times, and her feeling like she "went out of her way" only to feel unappreciated. say lah vee nigga.

~ it's funny how it works. when she goes out of her way to be overly affectionate and "sweet" i take pause, because, being strong believer in "actions speak louder than words", i feel like her deeds contradict that.

BUT

~ when she goes out of her way to be mean and accusatory, i dont worry, because again, actions speak louder than words, and i know she doesnt mean it. well, at least i hope she doesnt.

~ the former engineer in me figures that there HAS to be some kinda formula to work this mess out. there has to be a way for the units of Bad done to cancel out the units of Good done so that we end up with 1. BUT i can't figure it out for shit, probably why i'm a former engineer.

AN-T-WAY! no angry blogs!

~ i'm gonna go back to the old plan of "gettin involved in too many groups and clubs to notice the fact that u aint got no lady". so far i plan to ramp up my activity with mpact, join the urban league and start volunteerin there, do an hour tutoring each week, and maybe one more thing. that combined with school, work, and ldrship memphis should keep me runnin round enough to be effective. although if y0u ask a certain somebody i already got plenty pussy around town so maybe i should just....

...no angry blogs!

~ i need a new TREO somethin awful. the case is holdin this one together, but the truth is i've dropped it too many times and now i can't even get to versamail on there. luckily i can still recieve my gmail on the phone, but i'ma need a new one by the time the semester starts or i'm gon be stuck tryin to recieve my university email.

~ i'm not really interested in gettin a new girl / datin / fuckbuddyin / any of that, but i DO think i wanna have a date for valentines day. i just realized its been YEARS since i got my Mid-February Romance on. normal procedure prolly woulda been to call the ex and try to get a date, but that's lookin hella out of the picture now. (look! i said 'hella'!)

~ this clip just killt me: http://video.nbc4.com/v/?linkId=35533#

more later, perhaps.