HelloWorld.exe

a.k.a. New Beginnings
a.k.a. Fresh Starts
a.k.a. WTF happened?


2007 hasn't gotten off to such a great start so far. From swimmin in liquor on NYE, to the subsequent hangover of 01/01/07, to The Tanya Controversy that has all my friends talking, to being late to work every day so far this year...i haven't quite been at my best.

luckily the year is young, and i have time to change all of that.

in 2007, like in 2006, i hope for:
stability
respect
progress

those are simple and sufficiently vague desires, no?

stability and respect were the two things i feel i missed out on the most in 2006. and i'm NOT just speaking about my love life, for those of u who have been keeping up. progress was present, but more so in spirit/appearance than tangible progress. basically, i'm moving in a better circle these days, but i still aint callin no shots.

all in all, 2006 was a good year. thats going on the measuring stick of "Did you live through this year?". to which the answer is, thankfully, yes. but i guess the more things change for me, the more i should change my expectations. maybe just livin aint enough anymore. i'm no longer quite as close to being swallowed up by the ubiquitous "street life" that used to worry me so much. i've got dependable transportation, gainful employment, even a bank account or two.

perhaps its finally time to have that funeral for old "illegal".

but on the other hand, maybe i'm just a lil bit afraid of where progress is taking me. i dont wanna be one of these clowns who won't befriend someone unless they have a bachelor's degree. who log onto hotghettomess and laugh at the sista with the blonde bob, while they're scheduling their beauty shop appointment to keep their hair "corporate compliant". who meet a woman at First Friday's, fall in love and get married, only to find out y'all can't have no kids right now, cuz wifey's on track to become senior management within 2 years so fuck that.

in other words, i still don't wanna become one of THEM.

so how does that happen? how does illegal live yet Andre flourishes in the corporate/politcal/social world? how do i pull that off?

i guess it's time to update that list.

for 2007 i hope for:
stability
respect
progress, and
balance