ain't nothin shakin, i'm the same ol nigga...

(c) juvenile

~ man it's hard out here on a nigga tryin'a live right. i don't want attention, i don't want adoration. all i want is to stay in my lane, do my thang, and occasionally have someone say "hey dre ur doin a good job".

that ain't much.

~ i have a problem spending money. i had to have the polo ralph lauren jacket and i have to have different flavors of air max 90's (GOAT shoe, btw) and i have to have new clothes and new suits and premium gas in the whip and now i want a treo 700p (750 coming soon!). and i mean dont get me wrong i dont just waste money on myself, i'm a director's level contributor to the united way, i buy supplies for the schools i go to, i remember friend's birthdays and try to get them nice shit...i just spend too much damn money. i need to find a budget and stick to it.

f**k it, i'm rich!

~ i been hangin in some pretty high circles lately. dont get me wrong, i'm not the type of person that just gets geeked over stuff like that, but it IS a pretty strong transition for ya boy. it wasn't that long that i was hangin out with the WORST ppl you could meet, lol (much love to my niggas!). but now i'm chillin drinkin with execs and politicians and BILLIONAIRES (with a B) and shit like that. i was talkin shit over a drink with this older white guy a couple weeks ago, and after i left and was tryin to remember his name, i realized that this mugfucker has a building named for him at my school! not no little building either. shits amazing.

sometimes i be feelin like i'm pullin some sort of magic trick by bein able to blend in with all these different groups of different people. i kinda like that i'm able to do that actually. hopefully that relateability will help me to get where i'm goin.

~ relationships are tough. yeah it's been month since i updated and you hoped that i'd be able to write without gettin on some "woe is me where is love?" shit...but yeah, relationships are tough. maybe i'm too cold or somethin, like my father. maybe i'm just like my mother...she's never satisfied.

why do we scream at each other?
this is what it sounds like...when doves cry!

lol. but seriously. but seriously, what do you do? i give and give of myself, without asking for anything in return. but still that isn't enough.

~ i like the way my hair is coming along. it aint always GREAT, but its damn good. only problem is this shit itches like a fuck sometimes! and my scalp gets dry as hell and i'm too lazy to put the carrot oil or whatever on it. and this patch of hair right on the top of my head wont lock for shit. but i digress, i love my hair.

~ i forgot to pay my XM bill, lol. you ever had your RADIO get cut off? shits embarassing! actually naw its not, i spent all of last night like "why is my XM fuckin up!?" and cussin out my cd player and shit, only to get to work this morning and the lady from XM calls and is like "PAY YO BILLZ NYGGA". i had the bill setup for automatic pay, but i forgot to call and change my info when my last debit card expired. so thats all settled now.

~ i miss my momma and my lil brother. i'ma see either one or both of them over thanksgiving though.

~ that's about all i got for now. if you read all this shit, you're a good one!

don't make me chase you, even doves have pride!