i always root for others to fall in love

even as i've given up on my own "happy ending".

i've been meaning to write this for a lil while now... a couple weeks ago a pretty-lady-who-shall-remain-nameless wrote of "disappointment" for pursuing things with an ex of hers who had been less-than-kingly to her before. okay, so maybe he was a complete asshole to her, but why split hairs?? lol.

anyway, i'm writin this to tell that lady, FUCK DISAPPOINTMENT. the real disappointment would be lettin somethin real slip away from you, over pride. fuck it, roll the dice. if that man makes you feel tingly inside, and if his name in your inbox makes your finger stutter before you click the msg, and if the sound of a smile in his voice makes you forget any angry word spoken...then GO FOR IT. if you're gonna lose, you were gonna lose anyway by not trying. but you always gotta run with the possibility that you might WIN.

i'm not sure that i ever "won", but i bet that if & when i do, it'll be worth every single loss i've taken to date.

besides, whatever happened to love conquering all? was that some old cinderella / follow the rabbit hole / my porridge is JUST right type bullshit they feed us? maybe it is...but maybe it isn't! so do your thang, young lady. give it a shot with the fella, see if he'll act right and realize what he has right in front of his face. that's what its all about! you deserve that. you deserve to WIN!