in my mind....

~ i spoke to my brother for a good while last night. i'm gettin more & more proud of him everyday. i hope he straightens shit out and is able to accomplish all the things he wants to accomplish, without makin some of the same dumbass mistakes i did.

~ i went out and had a nice, platonic, fun time with a very pretty lady last night. i think, for right now at least, that's as good as it gets. hell i was even back in the house at a respectable hour. *nods*

~ so maybe nice guys DON'T finish last. they damn sure dont finish first though. but i'ma continue doin my gentlemanly thing. not gonna be lookin for love or Mrs. Right though, cuz all that shit is a myth. i can still be good to people though, you never know what might happen.

~ NO CASUAL SEX! lol if you're wondering why i have to keep telling myself this, it's because i HAVE to keep telling myself this

~ for some reason, lately i'm easily distracted as hell. i can't focus on one thing for more than a few minutes. wtf's up with that?

~ had a text conversation with *her* last night, pretty interesting. but then...

~ i went and looked at her page today. oh why oh why did i do that shit?? i took her off my friends lists for exactly this reason, so i wouldnt go and look at her shit and see somethin or read a comment that would make me angry or jealous or just feelsomekindaway. *failed*

~ in a related note: in the World of Andre, actions speak louder than words, chief. remember that.

~ Givin' up
is hard to do
when you really love someone
Givin' up...so hard to do
When you still depend upon
Her warm and tender touch
Her kiss and her hug...her caress
Ooooh that used to mean so much
And bring you, happiness...

Donny Hathaway

~ fuck all that though i'm still a KING.

~ i got plans to get up with some ppl in ATL and kick it this weekend, and i wanna skip out on that shit SO BAD. it was my idea though, so i don't wanna do it like that.

~ a young lady that i haven't spoken to in YEARS popped up yesterday, and said something that made me smile. funny how you have yourself convinced that someone has forgotten you.

~ frowny face mixtape volume II is JAMMIN'. 120 tracks of HEAT...to let you know that shit is played out like an 8-track~

~ i really hate hate hate the "it's goin DOWWWWN" song now. stop playin that shit already.

~ and that "i'm bossy" shit too. although i do like how she says, "CUZ I'M A BAAWWWS!!"

~ whoever i go to the erykah/jill/queen concert with, is gonna see me flat-out embarass myself. i already know that there ain't no way i'm maintainin my gangsta once erykah hits that stage.

~ my outfit was the pits today, but i was hella fly yesterday, so it all balances out, right?

~ one of my male co-workers that i'm kinda cool with tried to "introduce" me to a white girl yesterday, i'm not sure exactly how offended i should be.

~ she was BAD for a whitegirl though. still tho, not for me.

~ i want a digital camera, but i told myself NO MORE BIG PURCHASES for the next lil while.

~ my homegirl came to town this past weekend, and i completely flauged out on her (thereby retaining my crown as King of the 'Flauge). but i had good reason to though
1.) she was with some guy, don't know if it was HER guy but she don't usually roll like that so i'll assume
2.) she hit me up at like 11pm on some "i'ma be in memphis in 30 minutes whats happenin tonight? usually i'd be ALL IN for somethin like that, but i've been gettin my Super Homebody on lately, and quite frankly, i aint tryin to hear that shit
3.) fuck am i explaining myself for?

~ i'm lonely.